It’s Not Working
Tears filled my eyes as I stood watching my son. He threw his paper on the floor and curled his body in a ball. Our choice of curriculum worked academically and was a perfect fit. Or so it seemed. Fighting and attitudes were the norm in our school.
My daughter trembled as she fumbled with her spelling words. Taking spelling tests made her nervous and stressed. Her school work lacked academically. Emotionally, she dreaded school.
“It’s not working,” I shook my head in unbelief. We had been using the same curriculum for six years. But school didn’t seem the same this year.
I made it a priority to mirror the image of a public school for our home. Worksheets and grades were a must. We started out with school desks but ditched them as time passed. I tried being strict. Each day, they completed every worksheet without exception. That rigidness lasted for many grade levels.
With more kids added to our family, I lightened up a bit. We played learning games and shared laughs, but the worksheets never went away. The curriculum bound my creativity and blinded my eyes.
“This material is solid. The foundation is very important. It can’t be the curriculum.” I set my jaw and defended my stand.
Test after test, my daughter failed. She wasn’t trying anymore. Concepts she had mastered had disappeared. The solution flashed before my eyes, yet I failed to grasp it.
I allowed my children to skip problems and do the minimum if they learned the concept. This seemed to work. The joy of homeschooling had slipped away. My children were screaming for something else, and it tired me.
After much prayer, God showed me that the curriculum was great but not for my family. My children had suffered enough through disciplined schooling. It was time for a change. I lean more towards traditional school, but sometimes, we have to break away from our comfort zones and focus on our children’s needs.
We are still doing the curriculum for now, but our story doesn’t stop there. Next year, I switched curriculums, and we’ll try something different. It’ll be a gentler approach with fewer worksheets and more freedom to embrace interests and creativity. I never imagined I’d switch materials because I thought it was the best. My children and I are so excited for the next school year. Ok, they are more excited for summer, but they look forward to the change.
Change is not always bad. We should embrace some changes. Homeschool isn’t about curriculum and speeding through subjects. It’s about so much more. It’s important in the shuffle of life we don’t forget our children and their needs even if it pushes us out of everything that’s familiar.
I challenge you to take a hard look at your homeschool. Adjust and alter what doesn’t work. Don’t be scared if you realize your school philosophy isn’t working. It’s never too late to switch. Pray much and enjoy each day.
I am a stay-at-home mom who loves God, and couldn’t thank Him enough for His blessings. I have a great husband and five little ones. I have one girl and four boys, ages, 7, 5, 3, 2, and 5 weeks old. We spend our days homeschooling and trying to stay on top of the household duties. I enjoy baking with my children. And playing the piano whenever I get a free moment.
My blog is called: Called to be a Christian Mommy.